Breaking Chains Ministry Update 3.1.10 Lots of action but it is taking its toll……
In the last 2 weeks we have successfully rescued 2 new daughters both of whom have extraordinary testimonies…I will share Monica’s in a bit. We also through the US Dept. Of Homeland Security successfully shut down a child porn site that had more than 500 videos involving hardcore acts with children many of whom have yet to reach 5 years of age. I don’t think you can understand until you have seen this stuff the depth of evil that exists in mankind and while the acts are one thing what is causing me what may be more pain than I can handle is the faces of these children during the acts. I keep seeing them over and over in my mind. I find myself now at times in the middle of the day and night just stopping and crying. I can handle a lot as most of my work keeps me in the midst of hell but the enemy may have found the way to take me out of this battle. On top of that we have identified 3 different middle schools in Baja California where girls yet to reach 16 years of age and many of whom are only 12 are willingly selling themselves not out of force but for money to buy things like cell phones, chips and soda, and the latest fashions. Many of the clients are Americans who either live here or come down specificially seeking these children. Through an ongoing operation in the red zones of Tijuana we have also identified 42 minors who are being prostituted blatantly with seemingly no repercussion from law enforcement…yeah they do go in and arrest them from time to time but the next day they are back on the streets. It is a helpless feeling to see all this and only be able to act on a miniscule fraction. We have been waiting for help from Mexico City for a long time now and are pretty much resigning ourselves that it is not coming. It is not like they don’t have other things to do…this country is in the midst of a full blown war that makes Iraq look like a playground. There are armed groups attacking each other daily and many of the attacks are happening in the middle of civilans and even in the middle of town squares. The numbers are staggering and it seems like the daily reports of muliple homocides at the hands of AK 47’s and AR 15’s are just another story. The US has shut down the consulate in Monterrey where the Zetas and Gulf Cartel have engaged in a full blown war.
In the middle of all this I often find myself asking God…where are you?????? I know He is here as my faith has not been completely stolen but those little 3 and 5 year old faces from the videos sure bring legitimacy to the question.
I guess His response can be found in the small glimpses of light…Monica is one of them..she was held captive by a group who sells young girls to a group in Los Angeles who we believe use these purchased girls to staff a series of brothels and escort services. Monica has hated God most of her life…see her face is disfigured. She was born that way and with it comes a lisp which makes understanding her almost impossible. That disfigurement is the only reason the buyers did not buy her and the reason why she was rescued. The cool thing was when she shared with me how now after 17 years she had a reason to thank God for this thorn in her side…it Is was bought her the freedom she now has in Christ. The other glimpse was last night as I took 4 of the daughters to the movies here in Tijuana. One of the girls Yajaira once again earned 1st in her class with straight 10’s so as a reward I took her and 3 others including her 12 year old sister Violeta to the cine. I think it was for me more than them as the battle is taking the toll and I have been wondering if I have it in me to keep going. The night was uneventful other than just seeing them free and laughing…seeing the joy in their faces as they played video games like little girls with no fear knowing I was there…we saw some weird movie about this little girl that was murdered by a serial rapist (their pick not mine) but which had a message about Heaven. It was not Heaven as I believe we will see it but the message was that despite the evil done to these children God made it all good as they played in open fields and had worlds where there were no tears available to them in masses. I don’t know I pretty much hated it but they loved it and my heart tells me it is because of what they have suffered through and the knowledge of what is coming in our final destination.
Getting long once again so let me end there…now would be a good time to pray brothers and sisters…it is a season of almost unbearable pain. We need you now more than ever…we need your prayers, we need your financial support and we need more people to get off their butts and start doing something. There is a war going on …a war which is reaching a level of evil most of you cannot fathom or at least that you choose not to. I don’t have that luxury I have been called to fight for these kids and the images of those tiny faces is a double edged sword…it makes me want to quit and at the same time won’t let me.